Ah, so it looks like 2007 is here. What an amazing year 2006 was. The first half was devoted to my sophomore year, probably the best year of my life. The summer was filled with fun and relaxation. And the last half truly flew by, and I have to say I’m happy with how it went as well. Junior year has always been something which I treated with apprehension; now that it is actually here I’m finding that I seem to be mature and trained enough to cope with the stress and workload. It’s an interesting feeling, finally realizing that your high school career will most likely be quite successful and that you have achieved much of what you’ve been striving for throughout your life so far.
That said, I wish I could say that I have been looking forward to 2007 as much as I have looked forward to 2006 and the years before it. The realization that I only have another year and a half of high school left is truly starting to kick in. The idea of leaving everyone behind, of never having this experience again, and of never having these chances again is truly daunting for me. The last year has definitely brought me much closer to my friends, very greatly so in fact. The fact that in June of 2008 I am going to have to start to say goodbye to them is quite depressing for me. Honestly I’m starting to wonder how I’m going to cope. However, at the same time I’m trying not to worry too much about it, since I truly trust myself and my ability to deal with stress and issues.
What bothers me the most at the moment is that suddenly, for the first time I can remember, when I look into the future I am not anxious for it to arrive. As youngsters we all cannot wait to grow up, cannot wait to get out of our parents’ houses, and cannot wait to enter the adult world. It seems I am finally growing up, or at least maturing, to the point where I realize that life is not perfect in the future. I’m sure those around me are also starting to think about the impending bittersweet end to our current careers, or at least will start to do so in the near future; I’m sure this is the nature of the event and something that all individuals who pass through such systems face in the end. Unfortunately, that doesn’t really make it much easier to deal with.
Perhaps there’s something wrong with the fact that I’m more worried at the moment with saying goodbye than about where I’m going to after high school. Perhaps I have far too much trust in my own abilities and fate. But this is who I am, and I embrace myself. I am who I am. I just wish I had more control over what I stay being.
This is probably my first real blog post (actually it feels quite like a LiveJournal post right now). I'm pretty sure that this is the first time I’ve talked about my personal life even backhandedly on here, and it is definitely the first time I’ve talked about something which isn’t completely happy or carefree. However, writing all this down really does have a therapeutic effect; I’m starting to see why people write daily blogs like this. Thanks for reading.
Anyways, enough of that depressing stuff. 2007 is here, and we must greet it with full force and optimism if we are striving for success. This will be the year I take the SATs, visit colleges, and write applications. I might even know where I am going to college by the end of this year. A tremendously important, busy, and hopefully fun year is ahead of me, and other than the aforementioned worries I am truly looking forward to it (although I’m sure this post doesn’t make it seem like it). I wish all of you out there a happy new year and a happy, safe, and prosperous future. This writing has been truly relaxing for me, perhaps I will actually update the blog more this year. Thanks for sticking around with me. ;)
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